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Why I Modelled for Lupus Pictures
For as long as I’ve been aware of spanking erotica, I’ve watched Lupus films.
As a teenager I downloaded sets of Rigid-East stills on my parents’ bad dial-up, and wasted hours of university lectures wondering what it would be like to be spanked for real. I hoped the marks wouldn’t look quite so scary, but I couldn’t look away.
As a newbie scene player, I dug through my more experienced friends’ collections of video tapes, hoping to find the perfect spanking video that would work exactly right for me. I figured out pretty soon that, to get a video that pushes all your buttons and doesn’t grate on any squicks, you have to win the lottery and produce it yourself – and yet the old, much-copied Czech tapes often came closest to what I wanted. Even without any subtitles, “Reform School 1″ long remained my favourite spanking video, beaten only by “Crime in St Thomas’s School” when eventually Rigid-East morphed into Lupus Pictures.
When, as a new spanking model, I gained some understanding of the way videos are shot, I realised that the production process behind the works of the Werewolves was beyond anything a spanking company in the UK could dream of. It was then, coincidentally, when the Lupus films acquired subtitles and end credits, and therefore turned from half-understood mystery plays shot by nameless figures into the work of human beings.
It was also then that I started making a conscious effort to see every film they made, noticing common themes, recognising names of actors, catching some of the in-jokes and cross-references. I began to appreciate the Lupus body of work as a whole, and, despite what I saw as its drawbacks, I couldn’t help but admire the consistency and audacity of its message.
…There were drawbacks?
Oh, yes.
You see, neither back in my first days of furtive spanking-porn-browsing, nor now, have I managed to extract a grain of pleasure out of watching the punishment sequences that have become Lupus’s trademark. The harshness of the floggings, the marks and the screams tend to be too much for me; the occasional trickle of blood makes me cringe. The action scenes are supposed to be the focal point of any spanking video, and yet – unless I’m writing a review of the film – I usually watch them on fast-forward. Even knowing what I know about the safety and consensuality of the shooting process – even having been there and experienced it for myself – I don’t expect ever to grow to enjoy the results.
And yet, my appreciation of Lupus films has never wavered.
The recurring themes of individuals pitched against the powers that be – the state, the parental authority, the grotesque educational figures – and losing, always losing – appeal to the dark side of my kink. The camp, over-the-top comedies feed my nostalgia for a particular brand of Eastern European humour. The occasional supernatural plot pleases my inner geek, while the historical dramas satisfy my various costume fetishes.
There is also plenty of kinky content peripheral to the beatings that I can still enjoy – all the kneeling, all the ritual cruelties inflicted on the fictional schoolgirls, maids and prisoners. Until the first stroke falls, I am enthralled.
I have come to see having to hit fast-forward when the caning starts as a fair price for the wealth of kinky pleasures I get from the rest of the film.
My decision to take a role in a Lupus movie has followed a similar logic.
I don’t process pain as pleasure. I knew my caning would hurt a great deal, possibly more than any of my previous experiences. I did briefly wonder whether, caught up in the moment, I would find pleasure in my real-life flogging in a way I couldn’t enjoy some other girl’s filmed experience – and, pre-empting an upcoming post on the topic, no, I didn’t get any enjoyment out of the pain until it was all over – but, on the whole, I was prepared for a thoroughly uncomfortable several minutes over the famous bench.
And that was OK, because I knew – from studying the films, and from talking to Niki Flynn, who’d gone to that scary place before – that the rest of the shoot would give me the sort of pleasures that would make a few minutes of acute pain worth going through. For somebody who has a separate fetish for artistic suffering, working with a production on the scale of Lupus’s would be worth every stroke.
I had never before worked to a script, and I’d get that. I had never had somebody else think through the costume and make-up for me –I’d get that too, and in the end even the hideous pieces of reformatory wardrobe would turn out charming in their appropriateness. I had never before taken detailed direction, or shot completely – and confusingly – out of sequence, or acted in sets built for the purpose in every small detail; in short, I had never been a part of a spanking shoot run on such a professional level – and I knew that all of these experiences were mine for the taking.
Nor had I ever acted in a film that tapped into my darker fantasies. My previous directors, Lucy of Northern Spanking and Leia of Bars & Stripes, had been remarkably accommodating with my need for non-consensuality in a spanking story or role-play, but I go to the sort of places in my head where I couldn’t ask anybody to follow – unless I knew they inhabited these dark worlds too. In Prague, I could be a little girl lost in the woods with wolves all around, and I wouldn’t need to apologise for craving their bites.
I will also admit to a large amount of writer’s curiosity. I wanted to know, in detail, how these elaborate films were put together, and I wanted to write about it right here. Third-hand information is all very well, but there are things other people couldn’t see or experience for me. How do you act opposite someone with whom you share no common language? (Answer: you memorise your cues in Czech and smile a lot between takes.) Is it going to be embarrassing to act out the kinky content in front of a vanilla camera and sound crew? (Answer: not really, when the director and all the actors are as kinky as you.) How much does it really hurt? (Answer: more than you can imagine.) In short, there were lots of things I wanted to know.
So yes, I knew there would be pain, and I knew I wouldn’t enjoy it. I wrote it off as a side-effect: a price I was willing to pay. In hindsight, I’m glad to say that my judgement on this was sound.
By this point you may be wondering where my modelling fee comes into this. “All this is very well, Adele,” you may be thinking, “but getting paid a healthy chunk of money sure helped you make the decision. I bet severity pays extra.”
Not really. But we’ll get to that next time.
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Thank you for this very interesting insight into your philosophy.
Prefectdt
Drawbacks in Lupus?
Yes, the almost constant attempt to make comedy!
Prefect – thanks ;)
Cul – 1. You know I disagree with you on this. 2. Did you click “read the rest of this entry”, or hit “reply” straight after the drawback question? Just wondering.
Adele, you keep impressing me and surprising me with your courage and your wit.
I think your blog helps a lot in making spanking, spankers and spankees more respectable.
The harshness in Lupus vids also squicks me out most of the time, except in rare instances.
However – I LOVE Lupus films and I was never quite sure why because the harshness tended to make me cringe. I had not taken the time to really think about it that much, but I can see now that it is probably the production quality that endears them to me, based on what you describe. Lupus certainly does put extra effort into their product. Also they have those other elements that you have talked about so well in this post which makes them so truly unique. But oh those canings…OUCH!
Would love to hear even more about it if you have an inclination at some point.
Glad it resonated with you, Juju. I’m definitely not shutting up on the subject; there’s much more to tell!
The first two Rigid East films (DIR-01, and DIR-02) featured most severe canings (60 cane strokes). Do you know why Lupus is no longer shooting films with 60 cane stroke canings? It would be interesting to see an 80 stroke caning…
I wish they were to use a hairbrush, or a thick electrical cord more often.
Well, in “Stalin” Katerina Tetova takes a 100-stroke caning…
Not sure how they choose the number of strokes, other than that.
I find the Lupus films to severe, but very erotic. So maybe I just think they are severe so I don’t feel like a pervert.
Am I wrong or is this the first time we got to see your luscious bubbies? Yum Yum.
Speaking of Lupus, and pervert me, have you ever been figged?
I can’t wait for the vid to come out.
I happen to own The Crime in St Thomas’ School. I paid over $72 USD for it. Waited 2 weeks for it to arrive and was totally disappointed. I hated the camera angle for the paddlings. I hated the way the guy doing the paddling practically stopped in mid air before every swat. They didn’t show any marks because there wouldn’t be any. Not even a pink mark the way he was doing it. They didn’t show a single impact. I’ll never buy another Lupus film as long as I live. They hide the fact that it was basically a fake paddling movie I considered it a rip off from a foreign country. Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice shame on me. They will never get me again.
Thanks for the info, Adele!
Say, were you born in the former USSR? You mentioned “going back to Eastern Europe”. I was born in Kiev, and I have a relative who looks a lot like you. [I am NOT saying that we are related. :)]
Chibob – If you’d stop throwing your toys out of the pram and look at some of the pics on the Lupus site (and listen to those of us who have taken very real beatings from them), you’d realize how silly your personal boycott is. No one cares whether or not you buy another Lupus film, but haven’t there been enough ignorant “It’s all fake” and “starving Czech girls” accusations over the years? I suppose you prefer Mood, which is “real” and thrashes girls to bloody ribbons?
Yep, Chibob, ’shame’ is quite right. You should be quite ashamed for being so rude as to cast doubt on Adele’s honesty (and, in passing, that of the other models who work with Lupus).
I can assure you having watched the filming of the canings handed out to Adele, Niki and the others that there was no fakery involved. The marks on my wife’s backside would bear testament to that.
Shame on you, indeed.
Fred – No need to feel like a pervert :) Or rather, you may feel like a pervert, but that’s not a bad thing to be. I’m a pervert, and I’m proud.
As for your questions – yep, first time for me doing a full-nude shoot, and no to figging… I’m actually quite squeamish, so the idea of a food item touching anywhere on or in my body other than my mouth is sort of icky for me. *shudder*
Bill – Yes, I’m from Eastern Europe, but I don’t like to say where exactly for privacy reasons. I’m pretty sure we’re not related, though.
Chibob – I’m always amazed that I can see comments like “this is too severe” and “this is just not severe enough” comments right next to one another! I’d have to re-watch the paddling in St Thomas to express an opinion (as I said, I watch stuff on fast-forward, especially when it’s such a massively long scene), but… Consider that there’s a difference between a spanking being fake and it being light. If the action is too light for you, that’s one thing, but fake? I don’t think so, man.
“I’m actually quite squeamish, so the idea of a food item touching anywhere on or in my body other than my mouth is sort of icky for me. *shudder*”
I distinctly remember you stomping tarts and strawberries with me. Or did I dream that?
Welllll… it took some mental exercises beforehand!
For the record. I never said a word about their canings. In fact it was the pics of all their other films that convinced me to buy Crime at St Thomas. For those of you who disagree, I suggest you take another look at the film.
Adele, I read this yesterday, probably a few minutes after you posted it but I was so enthralled I couldn’t comment at the time
I agree with Cul, you are full of surprises. Courage, wit and – I would add – authenticity shine through in all you write. It would just never have occurred to me that anyone could want to participate in a Lupus video, not for the canings and not for money, but because they appreciated the plot and the production values. Did I get this right?
Might I ask, how much room was there for negotiation on the number of strokes? Could you have agreed to take part but limit the caning to ‘only’ 20 strokes (and would that have made much difference, if you could?)
Spike – Yep, you do get it right, but I’m surprised that it surprises you. Being a role-player with a particular kink for making spanking movies, I would be insane not to covet the experience. I mean… they’ve got a cameraman on a dolly! Complete with a dolly grip! Who wouldn’t get hot under the collar at the sight of a dolly grip at a spanking production? LOL (Maybe it’s pointless to try to explain a kink, but trust me, it’s hot.)
There was some room for stroke negotiation – for instance, I said “no thanks” to fifty. :) It never occurred to me to ask for less than forty – it would just be disrespectful towards the company. I wouldn’t want to undermine their value proposition to their viewers, you know.
I still want to make a lupus film, but now I think I may make it (if they will have me) as my swansong….well done Adele for going to do it, I am so so so jealous of you!
Leia xxx
Hello, Adele, we have not met before but I am an avid fan of yours and of Niki. You are both so real and so genuine.
Mind you, I find it almost literally incredible that anyone could strip and be tied down (were you secured?) and then caned as harshly as it seemed – with the marks to show for it, and did you say Niki actually bled? – and actually like, if not enjoy, the whole experience. Even on the UK CP scene there are not many like you two – and before Leia and Pandora jump out at me I know they will do it too.
Please keep sharing your life with us – all of us out there love you to bits.
Faustus
Adele, it was very interesting to read your insight and reasoning. Since I’m more of the school of “spanking is romantic and fun,” I have to admit, Lupus/Rigid East terrifies the bejesus out of me. But everyone has their own take on this kink of ours. Thanks for taking the time to explain it so reasonably. — Erica
First of all, I think you look really cute with (or without) those overalls. I might even be tricked into buying the film :)
I also like the quality of Lupus movies, even if I would like them a little lighter. But I wonder what happens if a tied up model just cant take anymore. Do they stop shooting and try again later ?
I liked “Crime at St Thomas” and perhaps Adele would too, maybe for the same reason that Chibob doesn’t. It seems his taste runs more to the severe.
I don’t really enjoy seeing bottoms made swollen and purple.. I’m happy with reddened cheeks and consequently I preferred the part of “Crime” that had the 16 girls getting the admittedly light paddling more than the subsequent more severe caning of the 3 responsible miscreants.
As Erica said, “everyone has their own take on this kink of ours.”
Mark
Do you think that perhaps Lupus Picures leans more to BDSM than spanking. Personally “Punished Brats” is more to my liking I find some of the scenes in Lupus Pictures quite grotesque
Leia – well, if you’re ever wondering about it, you know where to get perspective on it :)
Faustus – I know, it seems incredible, doesn’t it, that there’s enjoyment to be found behind all the suffering. I’m sure I’ll keep wondering about other girls when I see them caned (“Did she enjoy it? How about her?”), but the amount of pleasure I’ve managed to extract from the experience surprised me, too.
Erica – Somehow, I could tell this wouldn’t be your cup of tea :) I’m not giving up on the romantic and fun aspects of spanking, either!
Barney – Well, there’s always an option of saying “no more”. It’s in the contract :) I can’t imagine a grown, healthy woman unable to take it – it’s unpleasant, but it’s hardly the worst ordeal a female body puts us through.
Mark – Yeah, the paddlings were the bit where I didn’t have to fast-worward so much :) I liked the film mostly for the long stretches of lessons etc. I like my school videos with lesson!
John – We all have a different understanding of BDSM, spanking, how much they relate to each other, and what belongs where. As somebody who finds the non-spanking aspects of BDSM pretty dull, I’d say that most Lupus films have pure spanking plots: girl is bad (or is accused of being bad) – girl gets caught – girl gets whacked on her bottom. That she gets punished more severely than in other films, doesn’t change their basic kinky undercurrent.
Adele, I think you & the other girls are marvelous & I regard it as a sensual art form, keep up the excellent work & I for one will always be a fan, Max.
Adele, what are your thoughts just prior to receiving the strokes, fear, dread, anticipation?, Max.
Personally I do like Mood pictures a bit more. I think Lupus could increase the intensity of their canings. Also Mood features bare back whipping.
Everyone has their own tastes
I liked your comments about Lupus pictures. I like the fact that they are not the standard spanking storylines but the severity does bother me. That is why I haven’t bought any. I might yet though. Lenny the tough looks pretty good..
My favorite spanking is from an old Nu-west audio tape. “Interview with Valerie bond”. In it Valerie Bond gives a girl what I consider a classic spanking. From the time she starts to the time she lets the girl up is only about ten seconds. As best as I can count it is only about seventeen licks. But the girl is definately crying when it is over. I asked Ed Lee to re-release it but I think it is low on his priortiy. I have worn out the tape in that section.
Good luck in your seach for the spanking you want. The problem with Doms and tops is most of them really don’t care you want. Just what they want.
Hmm. I have recently bought some of the Mood DVD’s. They are very severe and although fascinating – strangely not as erotic as some of the Lupus / RGE productions. It seems that many I chat to do not understand the difference between the erotic ‘tension’ and ’submission’ that those of us who are into CP enjoy – compared to the faux savagery and brutality that Mood and Elite Pain seem to be offering.
On another matter, as a long time fan of RGE and Lupus I would say that I would like to see more sex in the productions – a sort of Far East Media meets Lupus would be ideal – well done Adele for your comments – incidently they reflect my girlfriends thoughts who loves the tension building to her punishments and sexual release afterwards – if not the actual acts themselves!
My thanks and respect to you Adele for your fascinating articulate posts on this subject.
One thing that turns me off completely about the Lupus stuff is the relentless male anger and misogyny. Does that not bother you at all?
Perhaps they are great people in r/l but I cannot stand the vibe of their films – those domineering personalities, all that pointless shouting really spoils the scenes for me. I am not asking for there not to be intense caning ( though personally I dont like backsides turned to raw meat), I am asking for more real soft emotional contact between the spankers and the spanked.. for the actors to have a real plausible emotional connection in the scene, it would be deeply satisfying. And would make the intense punishment scenes all the more moving.
Perhaps I am asking for something that is just not Lupus’ thing… but I think there is a real gap in the market for very intense scenes directed in such a way as to bring out real emotion, tenderness and love between top and bottom
Brad – You know, the tenderness and love is something I wouldn’t mind seeing in a Lupus film too, because I’d be interested how they would go about doing it. There is, however, a limited number of scenarios which would help pull off the contrast between the spanker caring for the spankee, and then stripping the top layer of their skin with a cane. It would be interesting, but I’m not holding my breath for now.
A sypathetic spanker/caner, this is something I have had a lot of fantasies about but have never seen on a DVD. As a suggestion how about a third party top, a person that has not decided on the punishment to be meeted out but has been chosen to execute the sentence. The top does not agree that the spankee is guilty or thinks that the punishment decided upon is to severe for the offence but is going to deliver the punishment with force because they feel it is their duty to the person who has sent the spankee to them. The only help that they feel they can offer to the spankee is to offer verbal comfort and coaching to get them through the punishment. Just a suggestion.
Prefectdt
Hey Adele,
You’ve made me laugh a lot. While humour is something British and you only live there, you must have catched something from the wind over there.
Wonderful how you speak about what you do. I’m an instant fan!
Please go on.
Prefect – I’ve actually seen “sympathetic spanker” scenarios. I can’t think where off the top of my head, but there’ve definitely been some. I’ll have a ponder, and see if I can remember what they were.
Andre – Thank you :) British humour does rub off to an extent, but you won’t see me in a Mr Bean Does Spanking, that much I can promise you!
I must admit I love the harsh canings, the harsher the better. I also admire the detailed and authentic production. I have just been watching “The Noise” and enjoying the “correctional action” very much, even wishing he would hit harder – though I realise common sense dictates there must be a limit to the severity, and I shouldn’t like to think that the marks will never heal completely and invisibly. I must be a real pervert!! Blood certainly doesn’t put me off. Mere reddened cheeks do nothing for me, I like to see copious tears, unrestrained and genuine screams and uncontrollably trembling buttocks, and imagine myself feeling the real raised welts with my fingers and watch them turning purple. So thanks, Adele and Niki and all the rest of those lovely girls for their inspiring and adrenaline-producing
work!
As to love between top and bottom, yes I would like to see that demonstrated, especially with really severe caning. As brad suggests, I am sure we won’t see that from Lupus, though. Black comedy is their forte. It must happen in private punishment sessions, such as some couples describe in their blogs, but they don’t publish videos of it if it does.
Just one more point: in Wild Party (RE) one of the girls cannot take her allotted number of strokes and she is let off, nothing more is said. So it does happen.
Malcolm
Prefectdt said:
As a suggestion how about a third party top, a person that has not decided on the punishment to be meeted out but has been chosen to execute the sentence. The top does not agree that the spankee is guilty or thinks that the punishment decided upon is to severe for the offence but is going to deliver the punishment with force because they feel it is their duty to the person who has sent the spankee to them. The only help that they feel they can offer to the spankee is to offer verbal comfort and coaching to get them through the punishment. Just a suggestion.
There is a somewhat similar scene in Mood Pictures “Hour of Penitence”. It is been quite a while since I saw it so I might not have all of the details exact.
The Mother Superior determines that one of the novices is to get 75 strokes. The Sister who reported the offense lobbies Mother for a more mild punishment. Eventually the reporting sister reluctantly gives the novice 25 and then she has to take the remaining 50 herself.
Hi Adele ,
Firstly great work by you and Nikki . The Lupus plots weather ,everyones taste or not are primarily the same , be great to see films made with similar intensity but different costumes,settings and enviroments,. Given the talent that you and Nikki have is there any hope of some locally made product in some interesting places around the UK or is there some reason not to make the films here?